Lucky Girl

I’m a lucky girl with lots of loving people around me. I’m a lucky girl because  I have a home, I have food to eat, and I have a good school to go to. I’m a lucky girl because I know God and I know that he loves me.

I’m a lucky girl because I have the best boyfriend. He puts up with my stupidness/serious-ness/lame-ness/gayness/and all my NESSSSSSSSS~ . He surprises me with OJ when I’m sick, he drives me home when it snows, he yells at me to eat veggy soup and get healthy, he kisses me in the cold and his warmth spreads throughout my body, he helps me fight enemies and finish quests, he listens to what I learned in class/life, he lets me cry to him, he puts me straight, he makes me stronger, he sings with a powerful voice in front of me, he gets me cards from hallmark and works hard there, and he loves me. Haha my sweetie Paul, I’m a lucky girl and I love you!

-CJ

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Hello hello. I just came back from Paul’s. Actually I got wendys because I was hungry. I’m eating it now…one thing I don’t like about my order is that it’s not what I ordered! Omg haha I ordered some honey bbq boneless wings…and they gave me honey bbq chicken nuggets! sighhhhhhhhhhh.

Anyways, I had a really good conversation with Paul. I’m really happy. I’m a really selfish person though, I want to start being more thoughtful and not just think about dumb things that I have to face. I want to start going deep into my thoughts, I was not confident, but I feel I am now. I can speak my mind, just be confident!

It’s hard but start with little things. Paul I really do love to listen to you because I feel like a lot of the things you say is what I feel but I’ve never really articulated it. Thank you so much for being patient with me and encouraging me. I really do have the most beautiful, caring, thoughtful boyfriend! I feel like my brain was like a circuit that was disconnected but now the wires have joined together again with a little duct tape  Here’s to not being scared to think and talk! and believing in oneself!

hahaha laters!