When troubles arise I always think, can’t I just die and go to heaven now? To be with you? It’s just too hard.
Miscommunication? Mis-communicators? Isn’t that how humans are made, humans are just different. Would it be better if the world was just perfect and it was easy to understand each other? Or should I think, nah miscommunication is good because then you work harder to understand that someone…and that’s real love.
I wanted to just quit after our fight. I wanted to just hit things, punch the mirror till I saw blood…something extreme. But this time (instead of just fuming and crying and sleeping myself for peace) I had a conversation with God. After all God’s taught me I can’t do that…maybe a week ago I would of just done the same thing, but I can be confident in the Lord now and it payed off. That feeling of distress, impatience, just wanting to go crazy and do extreme things is gone. Maybe I did get a little extreme on facebook. Changing my profile picture to a cross and posting a bunch of verses on my status. A little thought that came up was “oh people are gonna see this and…blah blah blah.” You know what? I don’t care what people think. If I want a picture of a cross as my profile picture then I’ll have it. Why should I be ashamed or nervous? Who cares if they question me or think I’m Jesus lover/fanatic/fake. Whatever! If I post pictures of myself, things I like, people I love then I shouldn’t worry about posting a picture that reminds me of THE most important thing in my life.
Life is hard. Damn hard, but I’m lucky to know that I am not alone. Not one second and the one that is with me is second to none, the most comforting/reliable being is with me now. So why worry?
Confusion, distress, anger – be gone in the name of Jesus.
Psalm 91:2
